Sometimes life throws you a unexpected and rather unwanted curveball, and sometimes that curveball hits you, right in the face.

It’s very easy to feel like the universe is just out to get you. That no matter what you do, you can’t seem to find your footing. Right now, I feel like the earth beneath me is collapsing and there’s nothing for me to hold onto. Nothing to keep me from falling. That sounds dramatic, maybe it is. But sometimes it really does feel that way.

Its funny how even as adults with problems like bills, work and family, some things just make us feel so much more like the vulnerable children we used to be. How easy it can be to fall back into unhealthy patterns that we use to take up as kids. But that’s just the thing right? We aren’t children anymore. We don’t have the luxury of being able to screw up over and over again with our parents giving us a slap on the wrist and to clean up our messes. We have to do it ourselves.

And then, there’s the problems that really don’t have a solution. Some of them you just have to let go. No matter how much it pains you or how broken your heart feels. Because maybe holding on would just hurt more..

I find myself not knowing the answers to things I once thought I knew for certain. I don’t know if its because, I’m only 21, or how truly inexperienced I am in everything involving life in general. Or maybe it comes down to the fact that; I am only human.

Its easy for us to feel like our issues are the only ones in the world. No matter how many horrible horror stories we read about other peoples disasters far worse than our own, no matter how many of the problems we know for a fact our friends or family are going through. It still feels like our world is crashing down around us. That nothing can bring us back up for air. But that’s not the case is it? Eventually, the sweat will dry. The pain will subside, and soon we will be able to breathe again. Slowly all of the bits of us that were broken are whole again.

I can’t tell you why I’m writing this. It’s really no ones business. But I have to let this out someway, to someone. Even if it is a white computer screen.